So it seems that a couple of slippery little buggers escaped the confines of DCIS.
It never ends. One step forward, half a step back. I had hoped to be moving on to radiotherapy but it is not to be. Instead I have two small areas of invasive cancer that now have to be dealt with.
So now I have to have a sentinel lymph node biopsy. A minor operation where I am injected with radioactive and blue dye which is traced to the sentinel nodes in my right underarm which are then removed and subsequently biopsied.
I will be crying blue tears tomorrow. As well as other liquids emanating from my body being blue….
I feel almost paralysed. Every time I think I’m beating it, it wins another round. I’m in limbo, I cannot move on. The fear of what these next results will bring is suffocating. The biopsy itself can cause Lymphodema which I already have in my left arm. Deep joy. But if that’s the only negative I get from this, I will be deeply overjoyed. Grateful and relieved. Because needing this biopsy puts chemotherapy back on the table.
The good thing is that I am able to have this done tomorrow rather than wait until next week. Waiting really is one of the worst components of this journey.
So tonight I am drinking wine (shock horror) and downloading movies from Netflix.
Possibly even the Matrix. Bloody sentinels.
